Future: ....?

I think I'm afriad of going to college.

I don't know if it's actually of college, or of becoming an adult, or of moving away, but I'm just... scared.
I used to have this very unsettling feeling whenever I thought about college. Like I felt like I really wasn't ready and yet I knew I had to go there anyways because it's what's expected of me by my parents.
On the airplane ride yesterday from Minniapolis to Portland, Kevin showed my some pictures from his first year of college, and now I feel kind of better. He made me realize that it's not all about going away or of classes and stuff. It's about making new friends and creating new memories. I feel better about college because I've already made a school change twice now (even if they weren't that major of a change), and having a best friend of mine plan on living with me, really helps too.

So I have a year to fully accept it, and like 4 or 5 months to be sure because I'm applying in November. Woah.

Something that definitly doesn't help my feelings about college; I got my AP test scores back. I didn't pass. I got a 2 on both tests
It's the effort that counts... right?