Future: ....?
I think I'm afriad of going to college.
I don't know if it's actually of college, or of becoming an adult, or of moving away, but I'm just... scared.
I used to have this very unsettling feeling whenever I thought about college. Like I felt like I really wasn't ready and yet I knew I had to go there anyways because it's what's expected of me by my parents.
On the airplane ride yesterday from Minniapolis to Portland, Kevin showed my some pictures from his first year of college, and now I feel kind of better. He made me realize that it's not all about going away or of classes and stuff. It's about making new friends and creating new memories. I feel better about college because I've already made a school change twice now (even if they weren't that major of a change), and having a best friend of mine plan on living with me, really helps too.
So I have a year to fully accept it, and like 4 or 5 months to be sure because I'm applying in November. Woah.
Something that definitly doesn't help my feelings about college; I got my AP test scores back. I didn't pass. I got a 2 on both tests
It's the effort that counts... right?
posted by Karen @ 8:24 AM
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It's scary looking down the barrel of that much change all at once. The only times in my life I've experienced that much change was the summer *after* college, getting married, and becoming a father. This is one of the big ones...
But it's also a really REALLY cool thing. I know you well enough to know that you are going to love everything about college. The classes (a small part of it), the campus life, the awesome friendships, the growing into a new and untried identity, the looking ahead to where you will go and what you will become. It was a great time in my life and for nearly everyone else I know.
And as for AP tests, ick. I only took one, the English one, and I think I got a 2 on it as well. I wouldn't put too much stock in it (coming from the guy who got a 2...). That kind of crap doesn't go very far in college. Have I said it already enough? College really isn't much about going to class, and it's even less about stuffy standardized testing...
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